I remember the first time my husband opened the door to the bathroom while I was in there. In my own world singing and doing my hair, he popped in and said, “THAT…we can work on that.” A look of surprise on his face caused me to be shocked and excited because my honey has some of the best ears in the music industry and my singing, though always passionate about it, was always a private event. Private in the sense that I consider myself a shower singer in every way.
There were not a lot of opportunities to join clubs or sports due to moving around frequently when growing up. I remember back in second grade I attended one meeting of our school’s choir program and, not to toot my own horn, but that teacher may have been the start to a long road to learning and becoming passionate about singing. I hit the right note and this particular teacher had used it as an example of what to do. Singing then went to the back burner as we moved again. Academics were always very important over extracurricular activities and it has helped me in my professional life because I have been very blessed in getting amazing jobs! Now at the same time I wish I could have cultivated this skill at a younger age and be further along than I am. But I also believe that certain talents and skills are cultivated in different ways. I love to sing but would I have been ready before the time I started? Would I have received the right attention or focused my singing the direction that I am going now? Probably not.
Ephesians 2:10 states “For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.” As the creator of all things God knows what we can handle and when we can handle it. In my case, I had no patience nor was I willing to learn for a large portion of my life. On top of that I did not believe in myself and was very insecure with a hint of no self-respect, so singing worship and praise would have been very far down my list of what I thought I could do. Without the right encouragement I would have given up at the first sign of criticism, regardless of it being helpful or not.
At just the right time and at just the right moment God has revealed my desire to sing- my desire to worship. Even with this new-found desire being revealed it has not come easily. Worshiping is not simply hitting the correct note at the correct time but also being prepared and knowing what you are singing and to whom you are singing it too.
“Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows.” – James 1:17
I have been focusing on becoming more effective in my worship and becoming a leader that others can trust to follow. It has been a few months that I realized I wanted to become a worship leader and I have probably said that I was done and not cut out for it about once to twice a week. God knows the beginning from the end so there is no need for him to decide to give us an amazing gift and then think later, “yeah maybe that wasn’t the best decision.” God does not shift like a shadow in the setting sun. He is firm. He knows what he is doing.
I began writing so that I can encourage others, along with myself, to continue on with the gifts and talents that they have. I want to bring my experiences to the table in order for others to have the chance to learn from my mistakes and not take the long road. At the same time we were meant to be a community so my ultimate purpose is for us to all grow together and experience life with new friends!
All the best,