When I first started my walk with Christ, I found that this was a question that frequented my mind. Quite often I would find that I was not living up to what I thought the expectation of how I should be living my life. I was constantly failing and wondering “will God forgive me this time” and “does God forgive all sins?”
A Rough Beginning
I by no means claim perfection. I started off with a thick layer of stubborn, rude, and critical. Traits I was “comfortable” with and that I used to hide my true self. I didn’t want others to know how vulnerable and easily hurt I was so I put on my “thick” skin and let everyone believe I didn’t have a care in the world.
One person saw through the facade. Jesus, I believe, chuckled at the facade and started his work on me. Slowly and patiently he dug through the tough ugly exterior to my true vulnerable and soft nature. Where I believed I was weak, he showed me I could be strong. Where I thought I could not show love, he showed me different.
Relationships were difficult because I didn’t know how to have a healthy meaningful commitment to another person. I was brought up around manipulation and figured that was the way to go. I didn’t realize there was another way until giving my life over to Christ.
From God With Love
I was broken and hurting. The layers were being peeled back and exposing the soft underside. I was healing from the old me that was callous and unforgiving. While doing so I was learning about a perfect and forgiving love. Jesus was my shelter (and still is) and he ever so gently put me back together – stronger and healthier. Each time I failed he showed me his never ending love.
There are several verses in the bible that talk about God’s love for us.
For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life. (John 3:16)
See what great love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! And that is what we are! The reason the world does not know us is that it did not know him. (1John 3:1)
This came in the form of Jesus. His love, forgiveness, and again his love. He sent his son – perfect in all ways. His child, the only child, without blemish and one whom never fell for temptation. I believe that all my sins have been forgiven because the price that was paid was perfection. He paid with the most valuable asset he had. There is nothing in all the world that can replace what was done and I know that by his death I have been saved.
In In the times I was uncertain I turned to Joel 2:32 which states, “And everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved;
for on Mount Zion and in Jerusalem there will be deliverance, as the Lord has said, even among the survivors whom the Lord calls.” Still uncertain? Luke 1:37 says “For no word from God will ever fail.”
If I could only write one thing that said what I felt and what I believed then it would be the last paragraph. Again I know that I need God and that I am not perfect. I also know that he loves me so I try my very best.
I would love to know what verses get you through the day? Any moments that you could remember where you felt God’s unconditional love the most?